Those of you who already me follow me across social media will now that I have a whole lot going on in my world and for those of you that don’t, heres a quick (very quick) run down:
-I’m a Mum of two girls under 5, wonderful and hectic in the same breath.
-My husband has a grade 4 PNET brain tumour and so has meant he has certain limitations on what he can do daily and has meant i have taken on lots of new roles in our family I didn’t have before. I am the driver, I sort tablets and organise hospital appointments, take care of the children, shopping, car stuff etc etc.
-For the last 15 months I have ran and coached business owners across the world. this has meant dealing with people every single day, 24-7. those with varying needs from me and its something I have loved.
No this may not be the whole lot, but it gives you an idea.
Now I certainly don’t feel sorry for myself in any way, shape or form. my life (regardless of its challenges) is great.
However a few months back, I found that after my sisters partner was diagnosed with leukaemia (a horrendous shock for everyone) I just couldn’t get myself back to positive. I felt like I was sinking and not being able to get myself back up.
I’m an extremely positive person and used all my normal ‘bounce back’ techniques, but to no avail. I was snappy with my family and struggling to be the wife/carer to my husband I wanted to be, or the Mum to my children. I wasn’t looking after myself properly and was pushing myself to the edge.
So after a great deal of thought I decided to stop.
No thought, no deliberating, just STOP.
I had to.
I am a natural carer, I hate to see people struggle, when I know Im strong, but I knew this time I had to take care of me or I would be a useless lump to everyone else.
Stopping scared me. I know that may sound crazy, but slowing down, not having my brain thinking a million things at any one time was a scary prospect (Im sure there has been an element of denial and avoidance in my last 15 months) but I knew it was essential.
Since stopping, I have started to be able to see more clearly. I am starting to see through the fog and be able to see what is right for me and my family. I feel like I’m on a personal journey and need to heal myself, so I can be stronger than ever.
Its important to recognise when you’re not getting it right and to take stock. You must look at the right now and not always a million miles in front (and believe me, I have not always done this!!) I have loved running my coaching business, not least because of the financial aspect, but also the people I have met and the skills I have learnt. Its a fantastic industry and if you’re being given an opportunity by someone right now, then take it seriously.
If you’re in a similar position right now an you feel you’re just not getting it right, you simply must stop. Stick on the breaks and readjust. You have to look at where you’re at and if what you’re doing is still serving it’s purpose. If it’s not, then its time to move on. Whatever that is, work or relationships.
Don’t wait, or it might be too late and regret is a hard pill to swallow.
Don’t feel guilty abut stopping either, this is your life.
I have enjoyed letting go of certain responsibilities and feel like a new chapter is about to begin. Yes I know I’m a total hippy, but then if you’re on this blog, that what you can expect 😉
