As it stands I shall be 31 in 1 hour and I have been reflecting on life. I do this a lot. I question everything.

I think I’m supposed to be concerned about going into my 30’s but I honestly just feel lucky. I’m alive and I’ve done a lot already, with the desire to do more.

I’m in a rather weird place in my life though, in that I feel like I’m on some personal journey and that all the things I have done, been through, witnessed, been part of, seem to be coming together in some way (although I’m not sure in what way, just yet)

As a round up of some stuff I’ve done or that has shaped my mind, let me share with you who I am right now;

I’m a Geordie (someone born in Newcastle Upon Tyne-UK), I grew up on television (kids TV, Byker Grove-BBC), I went to ‘normal’ inner city school, I released a single via Sony, (under the name Summer Matthews), I on Top of the Pops Saturday, MTV, The Box, CBBC, TRL, Disney, Nickelodeon as part of my singing.

I went to East 15 Acting school (pretty prestigious school and hard to get into), I have been a CBEEBIES (under 5’s BBC Channel) radio presenter, I have dressed as a yoghurt pot, worked in bars, been a cleaner, worked in a seafood restaurant, worked in a strip club (although not as a stripper, I sold tequila), ran my own global coaching business, chaperoned the Andrex puppy (who was in fact my husband).

I cast a pilot for a reality TV show in the UK, that became pretty controversial and made big waves in the press.

I worked as a duo with my photographer friend coaching actors through getting their actors headshots, wrote for an online fitness magazine ran by Lee from the 90’s pop band Steps, have appeared in lots of magazines and newspapers including OK magazine, Elle Girl, Top of the Pops, The Daily Mirror, The Daily Star, The Daily Mail and often find myself the go to girl for local press and radio.

I have been a model, ran my own acting class, coached confidence, appeared on countless UK TV shows, such as Waterloo Road, The Bill, Doctors, Casualty, appeared in films, both short and feature.

I support various charities including Meningitis UK (after my daughter was diagnosed with it at 3 months), Bliss-The premature baby charity (after my daughter was born 6 weeks premature).

I have lived in Newcastle Upon Tyne, Essex and Coventry, both on my own, in house shares and now with my family. I’m a Mum of two girls, Brooke and Texas (4 & 2) and wife to my husband (and without sounding like a total sap-my best friend) who has Aspergers (autistic spectrum) and was sadly diagnosed with Grade 4 PNET brain cancer in Feb 2014.

I have laughed, cried, struggled, had an amazing life, been frustrated, supported, mentored and lived.

I never feel sorry for myself, life can be tough, but it’s also wonderful. I embrace it and I’m working on being a better me, everyday (and somedays totally messing that up-which is OK)

People would describe me as (and I asked) chaotic, strong, caring and passionate.

I’m super positive, with bouts of hypomania, I genuinely care about people and want people to know they can get through more than they know, be more than they know and weird is great!

I feel lucky that right now I have choices and money in the bank. I can eat and I have the most amazing family and friends around me.

I have no idea what I want to do next, but I shall share it all with you via this blog and my Youtube Channel/social media.

The rest you can Google (if you can’t find me on the internet, then your internet is broken)

Happy Birthday to me, 30’s? Lets GO!